Changes

It's been such a long time since I last posted. Hmm... Been busy doing other things. No, it's not that I didn't have time to post. Let's just say that I erm.. erm.. forgot all about posting. *sheepish grin*

Got my results in the beginning of March. Not good. Don't want to talk about it. Sigh. Applied to NUS and NTU. Mr Loo said that I should be able to get in. Let's hope that the nice bio teacher of mine is right. Went for Royal College of Surgeons' interview... nice friendly guy interviewed me.. should get the reply some time in April *prays hard ..very very hard*. IMU.. well... don't know. I'll send in the application and see what happens. Well, there's nothing else I can do now right? Just wait and see.

A lot of changes to RC this year. The whole restructuring thing... well, to put it frankly, I don't like it. Wanted to "retire" at the end of last year but decided to give myself another a go at it. Realised that sch-based VI is not my cup of tea. Think I'll go into semi-retirement by the second deployment... have to see what happens to BWLSS by then. Can't possibly just let go right? Aiky is has to go on leave, David is still in his first year (well... strictly speaking, in terms of being a VI.. I'm also in my first yr!!!), Mrs Ng is completely new and just after the 2nd deployment, even the committee will be completely new. Argh. Sometimes, don't you just hate responsibilities? Well, I think I just have to pray hard that HQ sends someone else to BWLSS. I'll be out of the sch-based scene next year, I promise myself that. Really don't like it.

I thought going back to doing courses would be a nice change. Well, in a way, it's nice. Nice to be working with people I know, people I'm comfortable working with. No, not saying that Aiky and David are not nice. They are great people. Just that... Mel, YH, Huimin, JF, Jiafen, GX, Wendy and seniors like Louis and Vincent Sir are just in a different league altogether. But... it is so similar yet so different this year. To begin with, most of the people are not around. I have never seen such a terrible manpower shortage in EVIC and FDIC. Very sad. People say that it's because of exams and other commitments... but how about in previous years? Maybe it's the restructuring. I don't know. Shouldn't say this, I guess. It's just my personal opinion, doesn't mean anything k. :) Then, there are the newcomers. Some of them are great but others... sigh. I always thought ICR among juniors is something OTHER seniors have to manage... now that it's so near... I don't know. If it's the old days, I'm sure the more senior ones will say something to them... now, the seniors are not around... us... who are we to say anything. We're just fellow volunteers. Higher rank, so what? Bet they won't listen. I mean, if depts still existed... we would, in a way, have more "right" to talk to them... now... it just seems inappropriate. Don't know. When I was an IFC, we had seniors to guide us, to teach us, to tell us off if we did anything wrong. It seems unfair to the current new blood to have no one to guide them. Maybe it's not their fault that they don't know what to do, how to carry themselves, what to say and what not to say. Maybe we, as their seniors, should tell them. But... it seems wrong to go to them and teach them. I asked someone and was told that our time, we had a certain amount of discipline... when I look at some of the new ones this year, I don't think they even know what that word means... don't think they even know what a uniformed group is. It is frustrating. Maybe I shouldn't think about it.. then I wouldn't be bothered about it. Right? Hmm...

Ok. I'm not happy being sch-based, I'm not very very happy doing courses. Maybe it's time to get my ass out of RC. Sigh. It's been so long. Wonder if I can truly let go when the time comes. Sigh.