Ouch, my toe

Wow, it's been like more than 10 days since my last post! Lots happened since then. Hmm... Went back for the weekend, met my darling darling kor kor who was back from US. He gave me some new toys. Love my kor kor sia. *grinz* Went to SG, kpo-ed at Mel's training, met up with Law, Mel, JF, YH and Angie. :) It's great, you know, to meet people after such a long long time...

Came back on Sunday (that's yesterday), went carrefour, got myself a nice red toe with black nails 'cos I stupidly bang my toe into the trolley's wheel!!! Argh! Then went for dinner, went to look at KL's night view. BEAUTIFUL!!! *grinz from ear to ear* took a few pics of which only one turned out nice ('cos I've got horrible shakey hands). Think I'll post the pic, along with those I took when I went to SG. When I have the time lahz. :)

Stress & Severe Lack of Sleep

*points at topic* Do I need to say anymore? Hmm...

Yupz. Summative I is just around the corner. Revision completed but can't remember a single thing. Very stressed. Haven't had enough sleep for the past few days. Think I won't be sleeping much for the next few days either. Weekends will be spent testing how long I can stay awake falling asleep while walking. This is my crazy life. Do I have any regrets about choosing this particular major? If I say no, you won't believe me. If I say yes, I'll be lying to myself. Well... sometimes I wonder why I made such a stupid decision but deep down inside, I know that it's something I want to do. *grinz*

Moving

I've been looking at quite a few blogs recently. Suddenly thinking that maybe I will want to change the way I blog. As in, all along, I have been using blogger and have grown to be comfortable with it. Should I change to movable type or diaryland or livejournal or xanga...??? Hmm...

have been thinking of blogging on this topic ever since I read something on wengster's blog... here's my post.. at last

Success

Despite the many definitions and meanings dictionaries may give for the word "success", most of us ask ourselves at one time or another "What is success?", "Have I succeeded?". Now, I post the same two questions to you. What is success? Have you succeeded?

Someone once told me "Success is the journey, not the destination". I take that to mean that success is about how you went through the course of doing something and not what you have achieved in the end. I frequently tell cadets when they whine about failing course, that failing and passing is of secondary importance, as long as they have put in the effort and have learnt something from the course. Everyone wants to get good results, people get upset when they fail exams, I do too. But if you sit down and think about it, are marks and grades the only things that count? Currently approaching my first summative, I'm beginning to wonder. Will I pass? If I do, is that something to be proud of? If I don't, will I be upset? If I pass, what will I learn from it? And similarly, if I fail, is there something I can learn from this? I am not saying that it is not important to get good grades, after all, we are living in a period of time where the first thing (and maybe only thing) an employer looks at are your certificates. What I am trying to say, however, is that academic excellance might not be the only thing to judge whether a student has succeeded or is on the path to success.

I don't know how to apply this to the working world, 'cos I am not part of that strange world. It will be quite some time before I start working and if I have figured out anything by then, I'll let you guys know. *grin*

I think I'll just end off by saying "It is better to try and fail than to fail to try". It is OK to fall sometimes, just make sure you get back right up.

Heehee

Ooo... SY is a nice person. Showed her my previous post and she said "Wow... you slimmed down so much!!!" Yay!!! Maybe all this living away from home is doing me some good. *grinz*

Time

Home again. Happened to be looking at the photos I have on my PC. Well, it's not that I have many, especially since I formatted my hard disk. Anyway, saw some of my RC pics and it began to seem amazing, how much we have grown and changed since 2001.

I think I have posted on this topic before but it always amuses me, what time can do, so, I'll post again.



This is a photo we took during the first course session of EVIC and FDIC '01. Still IFCs then. Not even wearing uniform. Months before I discovered the agony of being in heels for the whole day. Those days, hmm... not as much responsibilities. All we had to do was observe how our seniors worked. We didn't know much, of course. We knew nothing or had misconceptions about how HQ works, how instructors work, the life of a HQ instructor. Hmm... innocent days. Haha. We have great seniors (notice the use of present tense?). Always there to guide us. It's amazing how patient some of them can be. Me... well, I don't know what type of senior I am, only my juniors can judge, I think. I just hope that from my seniors, I've also learnt how to BE one.



Here's another photo. Promotion and Awards ceremony earlier this year. Not many of us are present. That's because the span of 2 years plus from the earlier photo have seen some of us becoming inactive or even leaving. Some others are absent because of other RC commitments. And oh, there... there's Vivian ma'am in the pic too! Heehee. One batch my senior. I don't know if anyone else apart from us will spot the great difference between the people in the first and second photos. I should say it's pretty obvious. We obviously look older, more mature and definitly dumped the "tootness", look much more serious now. Oh, if anyone is wondering why we look so wonderfully happy in the picture, well, we just got promoted and most importantly, it has been some time since we last met up. *grinz*

It's wonderful, you know, to meet up with people you haven't seen or spoke to in a long time, and still be able to talk and talk and talk like before. I can't do that with some of my ex-classmates in AC but with IFC'01, the closeness is different. Why? I don't know. We can meet up after several months then start our usual jokes and suaning. I wouldn't say that I'm closer to my RC friends than to my school friends, will just say that the relationship is different, it's two different kinds of closeness. Hmm... wouldn't say RC friends... 'cos in my case, I only find this special relationship between myself and my batch, and when I say "my batch", I'm referring to IFC'01 and not to everyone who joined HQ in 2001. I wonder if I'm making sense now. Hee. I do hope that this special closeness we have will always be there and that time won't bring damage to this friendship like it did to many others.