Thoughts
Wrote this in cameron highlands, while waiting to meet someone

If I said "Cameron Highlands", what will come to your mind? Strawberries? Flowers? or is it vegetables? To me, this place signifies peace, beauty and tranquility. Right now, I'm sitting at the entrance of a tea plantation, looking at the grand sight before me. The never ending dark green terrain, covered with tea plants (we were later told that this part of the plantation stretches out for about 600 acres). Everything is so quiet, even the trucks seem to know not the disturb this peace and tranquility, the soft purring of their engines have become a perfect background music as I sit, thinking.

What am I doing here when he's in the hospital? What am I doing here when he's in a critical condition? What if he leaves without seeing me? How can I still have fun when I know that someone I love is dying? What is wrong with me? Why doesn't she want me to go home? Is it because everything is alright? Or is it because she thinks since the elective is something the school wants us to do, she wants me to do it? Should I go home? Will I be more trouble than help? The answers to these questions are all the same.. I don't know. Just hope that he'll still be there when I get back.

I've since come back to JB and will be here till he's better or till school starts.

Beautiful Place
Blogging from an internet cafe in Taiping...

I didn't think there'll be anything to see or anything to do. I was wrong. It's a beautiful place. Waterfall, river and a very nice lake. :) I kind of like this place. The journey here took a long time, but even the journey was beautiful. Part of it, at least. The landscape is so daunting, really set me thinking. Are we really that great? Look at those mountains, they are like giants looking down at us, tiny things moving around them. *humbled* So mankind think we can "defeat" mother nature, I don't think so. And why would we want to do that? It's all so beautiful! (k..k... so it's for comfort and greater efficiency.. I know, I know, just happen to be in the mood for this lahz.)

Anyway, ya, I'm in Taiping now. After accomplishing what's required for this part of our elective, ttc brought us around. Looked at the "burmese pool", basically, the downstream of a waterfall. I'll post the photos when I can (and that'll most prob be when I get back to KL or even JB) The last time I saw a place like this must be when I was in sec 2 or 3, on a geography trip. During that time, it was just "Wah, beautiful." This time, I found that I can appreciate it more. Is that a sign of me growing old? I don't know. :)

Bow down before me...





Which Royalty Are You? Find out! By Nishi.

On Losing Your Way

Started on my elective... don't ask me what it is, I don't know how to explain (or rather, I'm kinda lazy to). Got lost looking for the place in Ayer Hitam. Ok, fine, so it's a small little town with no more than 4 (or is it less) main roads, and when you travel a little further, you find yourself in Machap or Batu Pahat or another town. But, we lost our way. Just couldn't find the place, didn't help when we forgot to bring the phone number of the place. I travelled up and down Jalan Johor more than 8 times, I think. The shop owners along the road most probably thought we were weirdos after seeing our cars so many times. Seriously, I don't think it's the leader's fault. I mean, if it is anyone's fault, then it's all of ours. Why? 'Cos it's OUR elective and we are suppose to plan it. If something goes wrong, then well, we didn't plan it well at all (ok, fine, we didn't really really do our planning properly).

In the end, we still could not find the place we were looking for, but thank goodness, asked an alternative company and they agreed to us being there (phew) and we could get on with what we were there to do. *grinz* Learnt a lot during our short stay at the place. :) It turned out better than I thought. Well, a third of it done, two-thirds more to go. Wish me luck.

Decisions... decisions...

One of the most difficult things to "make" would be a decision. This post, sorry abt the misleading title, is not on decision making but on how yours truly can't stand fickle-minded people. Especially fickle-minded guys. Hmm... am I being sexist here? Well, nah... just think that people who are super fickle-minded lack character and male human beings that who are fickle minded are just... well... super duper no character.

Yes, it's difficult to make decisions, but once you're made up your mind about something, then for goodness sake, STOP CHANGING YOUR MIND!!! Grr... Think it's a terrible mood spoiler. Some people think it's wonderfully sweet when another person changes his/her mind to accomodate her. Ok, so sometimes it is. But hey, sometimes, we just don't need some other person to qian jiu us. Get it? Get it? It's irritating k?

do I sound pissed??? 'cos if I do, it most probably means I AM. This post, however, is not directed to anyone. It's just the blog owner's way of expressing herself.

More Games

Before I leave, here are more silly games...

How fast can you smack the monkey? My highest 284 miles per hr. The music's diff when u pass the 200 mark.

Ping pong anyone? I suck at it though.

This is the best yet. LOL. What's your highscore? The furthest I could get was 533.something..

Last day...

*sobz* It's back to KL again tomorrow morning. This will mark the end (almost) of holidays, of stoning, of growing mould... will also mean that it's back to no-homecooked food life, to washing-and-ironing-your-own clothes life. Well, it may sound strange coming from an almost-20 yrs old but sheesh, I gonna miss home... and my family... :(

Going back to KL also means no internet connection in my room... which also means no more regular posts. I'll still post, but that'll only happen when I decide to pop by elab or when I'm back in JB for the weekend. Hopefully my blog will still stay alive ya? :) No more updates for the next few days at least. Why? Because I'm going to do my elective and will be on the move a lot. Unless I decide to spend a bit and go to some cyber cafe, don't think I'll post.

Dead Beat
one of my diary-like posts again... dunno why, but they seem to appear on my blog more often nowadays...

Today's district FD comp, today's also ACJC Fun-o-rama. Since I met up with some RC people earlier this week, I thought I'll go for Fun-o-rama instead. Got to ACJC in the afternoon and my oh my... the place was filled with human beings. There was an endless stream of people walking from the MRT station and the nearby bus stops to the school. Well, it is one of the biggest funfair by Junior Colleges. *beams with pride*

The whole event did bring back many fond memories. Hmm... ex-acsians (those frm ACJC lahz.. we're not ACJCians, mind you) will know that Fun-o-rama is one of the major events in ACJC. Yes yes, students pump in lots of time, effort and money to help the school raise funds (ok, sucky way things are done, eh?) but the experience is something you'll look back years later and say "yeah, I enjoyed myself" Walked around and thought back to 2 years ago... and I found myself thinking "how I wish I'm still in ACJC"

I met up with Jane, Gina, LQ, Cherlyn, Marc, Marko, Arthur and Er Yi appeared just as we were leaving. It was nice to meet them after such a long time, especially the girls. We used to be very very close during schooldays but kind of drifted apart after graduating from JC, can't be helped, I guess. Everyone's still the same, I guess. It's so funny to see them all again and realise that no one has changed. A year seems a long time and yet... well... it may not be.

Some people say that in a school, the quality of education one recieves is the most important. Me... I think... yes, education is important because it is the thing we go to school for! But... there are other things like personal development and friendship that really matter too!

Lessons Learnt

My eyes are RED. And they are very very uncomfortable.

Lessons learnt today:

1. Don't sleep at 3am if you know you gotta wake up at 6am.
2. If you don't have enuff sleep and your eyes feel horrible, don't wear contact lenses.
3. If you die die hafta do the above, don't wear biweekly contact lenses that have been out for more than 2 weeks.

Somehow... I feel dumb. Sigh.

Oh... something totally unrelated. I've added cmingo and stylussimo to med peepz list. One's a senior from IMU while the other's my batchmate. Another new link is to Raj's other blog, so now... "Raj's moblog" points to his moblog (duh) and "Raj" links to his other blog.

On Blogging

I'm thinking of moving my weblog somewhere else so I spent the whole day looking into movable type and gosh.. I've got a horrible headache... and nothing has been done yet. Compared to MT, blogger's so much easier to understand. Those people out there using MT, really take my hat off to you guys. Hmm.... think I'll stop now and continue tomorrow, so here's my post for today...

Someone asked me "Why do you blog? Don't you mind people reading all these?" Mainly, it's because blogging gives me an avenue to express my thoughts, to put into words what's in my mind. Then, you may ask, why not a diary or journal?? My answer to that is...*sheepish* I'm one lazy pig, I rather type than write anyday. Somehow, if I start on a written journal or diary, it'll probably end up collecting dust in a little corner. As for the fact that everyone can read everything I type, well, I really don't mind. I mean, if there are stuff I don't want to let anyone know, then I think it's best kept in my head. Does writing stuff in a diary give you more privacy? Yes, but it's not 100% safe right? Isn't it even worse when you catch someone reading your diary? By having a weblog, I know that there'll be people reading, therefore, I'm safe from horrible shocks. (Strange way to think huh) And, if no where is perfectly safe, why not write what you don't mind people knowing and keep everything else in your head? Of course, a weblog is more versatile than a diary or journal, basically... "if you can do more with it, it's more fun". Now, is blogger gonna pay me for the advertising?

Now, why do YOU blog?

The Trip Down South

It's been...*count fingers*... 7 months of leave, most probably the type of leave that'll lead to my complete disappearance. It's amazing how you can still clique after months of not seeing each other. Maybe it's because everyone's easy going and equally bitchy (heh, the greatest paradox ya?),maybe because some of us have worked together b4 OR..maybe I'm thinking too positively..and it's actually because I'm a once-in-a-blue-moon visitor, so they try to be obliging, nah... don't think so. *grinz*

The trip to Red Cross HQ today really brought about some strange and very contradicting feelings. I was happy to realise that I can still talk to the same group of people in the same way, that no one has changed much, that they are still so super hilarious, that Dor still has her bottle of peanuts on her desk, that Angie's TK doll is still there, that Jiao's still kinda cranky, that Ms P still eat next to nothing for lunch, that SILLY MEL is still trying to kill herself with gigantic workloads. I was happy to realise that I'm still curious wrt what's happening in RCY. I was happy to realise that we still can go out for lunch and laugh and talk like long time ago. But... I also realised that I've totally lost touch. I don't know many of the new names I heard, I don't know who's doing what, I don't know some new faces (ok, only one)... 7 months, so much has changed yet so much has remained the same. I'm starting to sound redundant, I know. On the way home, I began to wonder, when will be the next time I get to work with them? Will there be this "next time"?

Kinda disappointed that I couldn't meet up with JF, YH and our batch or some others. Well, it's a weekday and everyone's busy. Maybe another time, I guess. :)

The pics...


Introducing Mel with the one of the condition she's suffering from. She's also suffering from chronic silliness and stubborness... anyone know of a cure? (the stress thing is from the wall near Dor's table)


Proof that RC HQ staff WORKS HARD. No, they are NOT playing computer games or surfing the net. (er, I think..)


Ah huh! caught Des red handed. And from the looks of it, Jiao doesn't like teddy molesters very much. Heh.

Use Your Brain

Here's something that'll get you thinking. A puzzle kinda thing. :) Got it from Millie.

Hmm.. my brother commented that I've got no life at all, and I agree. Think I should go get something done. Maybe read a book. Have got er... "God of Little Things" and "Time Traveler's Wife" in front of me now. In fact, they have been in the house for almost a month. Hmm.... Yupz, some reading would be good. Read read.

Back to KL in 6 days' time

School doesn't start till 8th but I'm going back to KL on 22nd Feb 'cos of elective. I'm kinda going for it with mixed feelings but that's another story. Hmm... school's starting soon, and I'm not prepared... at all.
So here's a list of things I needa do:

1. Get t-shirts that don't look too casual and jeans that don't look like jeans.
I wanna go sch in casual wear yet not be blatant 'bout it, you know?

2. Study... revise
huh? did I say that dirty 5 letter word?

3. Give my blog a facelift
if I'm ever going to do it...

4. Broadband in the apt
ya, but this can wait provided darling imu's server doesn't screw up so often

5. Maybe a wonderful wonderful senior.
'cos there are things called PBLs and a girl that's lazy. Er... maybe I should be a good girl. We'll see.

6. Participate in Orientation
rag rag rag rag rag rag rag rag rag rag rag rag rag rag rag (*angelic smile* what? nah... I didn't say that)

- that's abt it for now, did I miss out anything? -

Oo, totally forgot.. (came back and added this) to those working hard for that paper on the 24th, Good Luck.

A Post Long Due
(this is more than a month late because I was too lazy to edit the photos *sheepish*)

On the 8th of January, a bunch of wonderful M2/03 p'ple came to JB after our End-of-Semester exams in order to go for the Bodyworlds Exhibition in Singapore. Here's what happened during the short trip to JB and SG... *WEG*

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Woke up bright and early, armed with my Optio S, I left home to meet, or rather, wake my friends up...


*after smacking both girls with pillow*
J: Uh... uh... ok... I'm waking up, ask SH to wake up first lah...
SH: Uh... waking up... ask J to go wash up first
Grr... When both of them want each other to "wake up first" who do I wake huh?

After accomplishing the near impossible, we're at last on our way to Expo, Singapore. On the way...


SJ: It's my turn to sleep..Zzz..
A: Snake, snake, snake, snake, snake, snake, snake, snake, snake...

The exhibition was great. Yupz, otherwise I wouldn't have gone again right? I'll post on that another day... After the exhibition, some people disappear to shop while the three of us just can't resist those bouncy castles.


Yeah yeah... talk about bullying.

Then it was off the Orchard to walk around and Home Sweet Home...

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Nothing much happened the next day or for the rest of the short trip. Brought them shopping in JB and of course, people on see-food diet around.. so...


J: yummy...

There's the food. *grinz*

Kissing too hard?

Saw an article on how some people chose to celebrate V-day.

"But when they detached on Friday night, doctors had to give the 31-year-old man oxygen. The 30-year-old woman was said to be in fairly good shape."

Some people really go all out eh??

Blog News -- "Med Peepz"

Recently, I added a few more links to my blog so thought I'll do some sorting out. In the end, I added another section "Med Peepz", where you'll find links of blogs of people with anything to do with med. Er.. Med Peepz = Med People?? Let's see... Cyanide-Jel is a blog belonging to 2 UM medical students. I kinda like the "clean-ness" of their design and layout and of course, it's always nice to know what's going on in other med students' life. I'm a kpo by nature, heh. Kreaturez is one of my M2/03 batchmate's blog. It's not really a journal but a place where he post all his poems. He doesn't post often but the most recent one is a poem to our darling batch rep aka his gf. Aww... how sweet right? Dr Liew is a Dr lahz... (duhz) and his blog is the funniest I've come across so far. *grinz* Lena is one of my seniors from IMU. Nice girl and hiak hiak, I'm supposed to be her stalker. *mysterious psychotic grin* Eh Lena, have fun doing your GP attachment ya... Raj is another one of my IMU batchmates. Lotsa photos there. Think he's the type that won't hesitate to post a pic of you sleeping during class... now... I must remember to sit myself far far away from him in the LT *grinz* Then there's MMR which stands for Malaysia Medical Resources. Very informative website, kudos to Palmdoc.

That's all for now. Still waiting for some people to say I can link them. *grinz*

Horrible English

My english sucks.. haha. Was tagging on MMR's tagboard when I typed something wrongly, then I corrected only to realise I got it wrong again 'cos I didn't read it b4 I submitted... shan't change it again since I don't wanna flood their tagboard. Haha. I'm going nuts and my english is going crazy. This is BAD...

Well.. here's something I'm sure most of you have gotten on your email b4...

Aoccdrnig to a rscheearch at Cmabrigde Uinervtisy, it deosn't mttaer in waht oredr the ltteers in a wrod are, the olny iprmoatnt tihng is taht the frist and lsat ltteer be at the rghit pclae. The rset can be a ttoal mses and you can sitll raed it wouthit porbelm. Tihs is bcuseae the huamn mnid deos not raed ervey lteter by istlef, but the wrod as a wlohe.

Fcuknig amzanig huh?

But then i realized that you still have to have all the right letters in the jumbled word or it could come out looking like this:

"Aocctrnig to a rscteeiarch at Cnabrijde Uinurvtisy, it dsun't mddaer in wat oridr the lttuers in a wrid are, the orny iprmoetnt tifng is teht the flist and lsat lddeer be at the reit pslae. The rset can be a tdoal msas and you can sidll ried it wowthit polbelm. Tihs is bcuceae the huann mnid deos not reed erbey ldeder by istref, but the wlod as a wloae.

Fkilnig uriedlabe, ins't it?

Cyborg Name

Got this from here.



Muahaha, so I'll be exploring and infiltrating top secret agencies? Muahaha. Like the idea but er...

V-Day

Happy Valentine's Day!!! That's to all those out there who, like me, are going to spend Valentine's day without a Valentine. *sobz*

What is Valentine's day all about? Or rather, what do I think Valentine's day is all about... Some say it's a day to "celebrate love" but, like what choc baby said in her 11th Feb blog, you don't have to be especially affectionate just because it's 14th Feb. If a couple is truly in love, shouldn't everyday be V-day? (But er.. then it'll be kinda ex to have a bgr rightz? hee)

Seriously, isn't V-day just a day for florists and giftshop owners to make more money? Price of flowers, especially roses increase many folds, special gifts appear in shop windows. And the public comes along and starts to spend. Hey, it's less than 2 months since Christmas and it's time to make a hole in one's pockets again? OMG. Oh, and for those like me... well... V-day is a reminder that we're not attached.. Haiz... Hee.. but considering the bit 'bout spending money, I wonder if it's really all that bad. Haha.

I think V-day is the day where you remember the love around you, the people that are so concerned about you, the people that are always there when you're down (and mind you, they may not be the ones who you run to when you're having fun.. but they come to your mind just when you think the world's collapsing any moment). We never seem to appreciate these people till we need them... maybe we should take a day off and remember............................... think of the wonderfully close friends you haven't spoken to for months, think of the ex schoolmates who used to sit and listen to your troubles... :)

darling batchmates and seniors from rc... really miss you guys..and love you guys lots.
all my dear friends who are reading this... Have a Wonderful V-day!

Sing???

So... your friend can't sing? Look at this.

On Smoking... again

Remember my blog on smoking??? Haha...this is funny... Hahaha. Kinda lengthy though. Ok... why so many links to flash these days??? 'cos I've got nothing better to do, nothing better to see mahz... *grinz*

Funny

This reminds me of the days long long time ago when I used to watch gao xiao xing dong every monday... when I was a little kid. Hee. Funny. It's in mandarin though.

On Smoking

Ok, it's past midnight, I'm reading the news when something caught my eye. Got me thinking about smoking. This post has nothing to do with the article, it was just something that set me thinking.

I never really understood why some people choose to smoke. Stress? Well, sorry, reason not accepted. There are countless ways to manage stress and smoking and alcholism just don't seem the best choices anyone can make. Because of society? Like someone used to tell me when I was young, "people do you must do, so people eat sh*t you must eat also, is it?" Why do something that you know is harmful? If you smoke because you don't know it's harmful, well, then I guess no one can fault you. Otherwise, why do things that will cause you harm? *scratch head* Why???

You know, people, don't smoke. Please don't start. If you're a smoker, it's time you try to quit. Somethings are never too late, others are never too early. Quitting is the latter. Well, if you say that you smoke and that's your business and that you're not doing harm to anyone else, think again. How about the passive smoking your friends and family are subjected to? How about when your health goes downhill because you smoke, who will take care of you? Who will be the ones whose hearts aches as they see you suffer. Think about it.

Here's another article on smoking, let's hope whatever the government is doing, it'll work.

smack the pingu!!!

smack away. for boliaoz pple like me... heehee.. quite funny

Bleahz

Who told me once upon a time that the internet is how good how good... how wonderfully interesting?? huh? huh? huh? Who ahz? I'm at the stage where I turn on the computer everyday, check email, read a few blogs... then... er... er... NOTHING to do liaoz. Why ahz? Why.... I've got nothing to do when I'm logged on to this wonderful thing called the internet, can't find anything on the world wide web.. HOW??? *bangs head against wall*

K lah, it's not that bad lah. Found 2 sites that I think are pretty good recently but apart from that, really nothing already lor. Hai... so, anyone has any good recommendations??? Don't gimme the url of your blog if it's already listed on my page... 'cos if I linked you, I obviously have your url liaoz, right? Of course, people who know me, have a blog, but realise that I didn't link them, let me know lahz!

K, I'm bored, like B-O-R-E-D. So bored, I'm starting to study... and mind you, it's like my HOLIDAYS now. *sad life*

Chocs, anyone?

Have a look at this if you have the time, ok? Just a line from the article... Chocolate contains chemicals called flavanols that have been shown to improve blood flow and reduce blood pressure. Hee. Well, but like most other things, too much is no good.

My F***ed-up Life

Here's the f***ed-up life of a medical student. At least, one in IMU.

Typical day during school term:
Wake up, change, go school; Lectures; Lunch; PBL, otherwise it's free time, supposed to be studying or doing OLIS or SILOS (er... online learning stuff lah); Dinner; Suppose to be studying or doing something productive; Sleep.... sleep... sleep
- all the while wondering WHEN IN THE WORLD HOLIDAYS ARE COMING

Typical day during school term as exams approach:
Study; Change, go school; Lectures; Lunch; Study; Dinner; Study; Supper; Study
(notice a certain 5 letter word is missing? Er... not all the time though, maybe for 'bout 3 or 4 hrs a day)
- all the while still wondering when hols will be coming and why exams aren't over yet

Ok, so, finally exams are over, results are out, everyone's happy...

Typical day during holidays (a 2 mths hols, mind you):
Wake up; Eat; Internet; Sleep; Wake up; Eat; Internet; Sleep..... and the cycle continues
(Super boring, if you ask me)
- all the while wondering when SCHOOL IS GOING TO START AGAIN

Haha.. pretty f***ed-up life rightz?

Quote

Wanted to post this since the first time I saw it at the Body Worlds exhibition in Nov'03 but couldn't remember the whole thing. Took it down when I went to the exhibition again in Jan'04. After a very very long delay, here it is. Nice quote, I think. Seems logical to me, what do you guys think?

"Get used to the idea that death should not matter to us, for good and evil are based on sensation. Death, however, is the cessation of all sensation. Hence, death, obstensibly the most terrifying of all evils, has no meaning for us, for as long as we exist, death will not be present. When death comes, then we will no longer be in existance."

Didn't take down who said this, so... anyone who knows, tell me k? Thankz.